No one warns you how hard it is those first few weeks after having a baby, oh they warn you, but they don't WARN you. Every warning handed out is softened with a "oh but it's all worth it", it is not worth it in the middle of a hot July night, when you wake up thinking "am I leaking again, or just sweating?".
N is 4 weeks old now and it's 1 step forward and 2 steps back. Everytime I think I've got some baby related task down pat, he decides to shake it up again, just to keep me on my toes! Every feed is a battle, every winding is a war, every nappy change is a wrestling match.
Thankfully I have a lot of support, my family are quite close and pop up nearly everyday to offer to mind N while I grab a nap, unfortunately my brain will not cooperate and turn off. Right now my husband has N out for a walk, just to give me a break, today has been a tough one, hopefully he comes back asleep, is it wrong to wish for that?
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